Post by Timothy Sutter Post by David Dalton
These days I am having some doubts about my eight main deities
and am considering going atheist again as I have been twice before
for a good number of years. But if I do so I would leave my
main messages on my Salmon on the Thorns web site, and leave
the description of my past mystical experiences, but would
remove the deities section. And I would still claim to
be similar to some past major pagan and non-pagan
religious figures. That similarity serves as a backing for
my main messages, which are mostly non-religious.
Is it true that the Buddha had no deities?
you can grab a piece of Jade and mold it in your own image
and call is a buddha and pray to it and leave it rice and
feel good about yourself, and that's sort of what you are
doing , trying your best to carve out an image of yourself in jade
only you're never quite sure that it looks like you, cuz
you aren't seeing yourself very clearly and other people
waltz up to you and your image and grab a hammer and chisel
and whack a few strokes and say; "there, now it looks more
like "you"" only it looks more like "them" and you still
don't know the difference and someone may walk up with
a big sledge and smash it into teh dust and say,
"Now, it looks like you"
and you go poring over the dust looking for yourself
time after time
"but i'm great and wonderful"
great...big deal ...oh great and wonderful one...
what a waste of perfectly good jade...
someone may tell you,
"that guy they call "teh buddha" had YHWH
as his one and only Deity"
and you'll be off poring over the dust
wondering whether =YOU= have actually "opened up" a "Way"
and realizing that all you did was open up a 'way'
for other people to stuff loads of nonsense into your brain.
in the inimitable words of Cher;
"SNAP OUT OF IT"
sorry Cher, it's just what crossed my mind...
if doctors or whoever ask me whether i have any problems with delusion
i say i don't even know if i'm real let alone anything else i experience
.. i can't get past square one (me). words are just labels for pictures
to me (i was taught to read very early with picture cards).
i haven't completely beamed up and out of "reality" into my own mind.
i feel an imbalance in that extreme, and an emotional dissatisfaction.
"reality" and "imagination" can't be known with no concept of their
opposite. although in a way all i can perceive directly, empirically may
be subjective appearances first and foremost i perceive appearances of
both sides, objective external existence and subjective internal
appearance.. but i lean inside myself.. the art side.. it just seems to
be more real to me, my most fundamental ground.. within the appearance
of appearances are appearances of things that are real outside of
appearances and of things that are not really real things but only
appearances.. but whatever anything is might not be so simple to know
either way. i sense a truth "out there" or "inside myself" including
qualities of both sides... meeting somewhere in the muddle. make sense?
i don't know what i think. i wouldn't even claim that i am led to think
what i think with any basis in truth, i think it's just my desire that
leads me to these thoughts that feel okay to me.. and general ignorance.